notes to myself

when i saw someone dear to me having her/his dreams wished all came true
i am happy for her/him,
but boy, how i wish that i could be at his/her place!
sape taknak kan kalau ape bende kite nak sume leh dapat kan? kalau you all pun mesti nak jugak kan

but i must say, i must be realistic
i am who i am, i cannot be someone's else
i cannot be someone else's daughter who have a wealthy parents yang mampu bagi apa saja yang diingini
if i want sumthing, i must do scratches from the bottom and try to get to the top on my own
cos i know, i am not a rich people

but sometimes, when we have achieved what we want
we became greedy, we felt that what we had now is still not enough to please ourself
we ask for more n more
i did felt that way sumtimes..i know, this is not healthy
i must be grateful, i must be thankful to God that give me this rezeki
there are a lot unfortunate people out there whom really want to be in my place, hoping, praying and doing their best to get into this comfort zone
but i am already here, already achieved half of my dream, now trying to achieve another half of it
jadi...
qila, sila bersyukur